a completely beautiful mindfuck

during the holidays, I took some pictures of random shit and I figured I may aswell post them..

these were out the front of my grandmas...

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bah obviously the last one isnt from my grandmas

I feel myself drifting away from my friends

hardcore...

I cant be fucked talking on the phone anymore...

I'm falling into my own little world of self hate and pure destruction
and it scares me to admit that for once I actually like it...

even julia, a friend of mine confronted me about it...
I used to be heaps good friends with her and we'd always hug and talk ect... now I just feel so dull and we hardly talk...
is it the fact that a guy a used to like who is also my friend is now going out with her? is this what is turning me away from our friendship?

I need a jazz song, A rock song, a song of my own choice and another song... to sing for my exams...

I was thinking Cry me a river - ella fitzgerald
or Pierre - Carole King

and for the rock, I was thinking last day of our aquaintence - sinead o'connor

and for the others im completely stumped...

so if anyone can recomend it would be awesome... I have a soprano - very low alto range... so fill me with lots of musical goodies..

oh! I also want a packet of american bandaids that are themed.. because they are fucking awesome... and they made my bad habit look awesome....

Cassie and I have started talking again haha.. i think we have girly crushes again... uh ooooh... and she wants to go to AIM next year for managment in music... and wants to share an appartment with me... haha If anything wicked happened between us it would be hillarious.. cassie and cassie haha

<33 I love you all and hope you're all doing okay

i couldnt sleep again

heres to failure

im a pathetic person

oh! and yesterday i bought school stuff... and a new school bag <3 its green... will post pictures later...

im really exhausted...

this is the way im going to spend my 91$

60$ is for the dresden dolls
that means i have 31$ left
8$ goes to the asian store
10/15$ goes to razors
& 8 or so $ for random shit...

i also applied for a job at borders... hope it goes well...

<33 wish me luck

Two Names You Go By:
1) cassie
2) doooooooon

Two Parts of Your Heritage: (there are too many here. damn it.)
1) English
2) dutch

Two Things You Are Wearing Right Now:
1) skirt
2) shirt

Two Things You Would Want in a Relationship:
1)
2)

Two of Your Favorite Hobbies:
1) singing
2) photography

Two Things You Want Really Badly At The Moment:
1) the dresden dolls songbook
2) to go overseas... to germany...

Two pets you had/have:
1) a budgy
2) a bunny

Two people who will fill this out:
1) rach &
2) Someone else

Two things you did last night:
1) slept
2) played with my new phone

Two People that live in your house:
1) mum
2) sam

Two things you ate today:
1) pizza
2)

Two people you Last Talked To:
1) nick
2) cameron

Two Things You're doing tomorrow:
1) no idea
2) prolly garden

Two longest car rides:
1) sydney to bundaburg
2) sydney to almost adelaide

Two Favorite Holidays:
1) halloween
2) long weekends

Two favorite Alcoholic beverages:
1) vodka
2) rum

Two Things You Can't Live Without:
1) dresden dolls
2) my digi camera

my sister bought a fucking webcam...

its the most annoying piece of technology ever...

i need to finish off my left eyebrow before i go back to AIM... aswell as buying new books ect...

im so nervous... i know we're going to have another fucking assesment... so i should keep it wise before i fuck everything up!

the annoying thing at AIM is that if you're having a shit day... its so hard to hate the world when all these lovely personalitys are around you....

i fucking love them all.. in all their differant and individual ways... they are my true family!!

OMG! idea... noone at AIM has ever given the teachers a "grade" present before... i was thinking about taking photos and collecting quotes and thankyous from the students and giving it to the teachers as a thankyou for teaching and being our mentors? for the past year ect....

so em and jen... what ya think? if we all pitch in we can afford the book/stickers/fancy paper per person (it costs 1.25 for the fancy paper) ect... i think we'll be sweet!

<333

the past few days have gone okay except i left my amanda palmer at my friends house.. so now i am joyless without her... well not completely... im just missing my DD!

and we bought a new pillow *squeee* and material for my car seats so i can make DD car seats!

and can post final pictures off to manda... with love! and im hoping on making dd pillows for my car too!

<333 my car is green so we're thinking velvet purple with gold logos and writing

<333

so, we recived our new car today... its a old jag... haha.. its dark blue and from the outside, it looks like a herse.. haha

today i think i ate some off ham or something, cause i puked it all up... its fucking gross....

i did it down near the drink fridge... and now it smells gross!

I was going to meet julia at 12:30pm and now im going to meet her at 2pm...
i wish she'd get her act togeather!

thursday i want to go to the NSW state library.... anyone wanna come? em?

i need to research

i want to pre order the dresden dolls songbook!
nature is going out of its way to not let me =(

everyone is fighting over how the microwave isnt cooking and how their food is cold... fucking pathetic

oh and I think im getting a new phone... a flip one... mums got it sitting on the table but i think my sister will steal it attempting to be a smartass... she got the new one lastime... it was one of those flip moterola pink ones... i just want a new phone for a change... because ive had mine for 4 years... and i lost it... so... blegh!

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1. Put your library on shuffle.
2. Post the first line from each of the first 25 songs it plays.
3. Make people guess. NO CHEATING (like google)
4. Bold it out when someone gets it.
5. If you know it, feel free to reply!!

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1. "oh what a noble, distinguished collection of fine little friends you have made"
2. "theres a war inside of me."
3. "like a shooting star across the midnight sky wherever you are your gonna see me fly"
4. "i had the same dream again, the moment I wake up and im alive"
5. "im missing your bed i never sleep, avoiding the spots that we'd have to speak"
6. "i know its been a while since I have talked to you"
7. "today is gonna be the day that they're gonna throw it back to you"
8. "see all those people on the ground wasting time"
9. "am i loud and clear or am I breaking up"
10. "the record goes from blue to gold so thankyou for all your help"
11. "raise your glass, we have incorperated"
12. "are you ugly? a lier like me? a user a lost soul? someone you dont know..."
13. "oh Mrs.O, will you tell us where the naughty children go? will you show how the sky turned white and everybody froze"
14. "there is this thing thats like fucking except you dont fuck"
15. "you can have washington, ill take new jersy. you can have london but I want new york city"
16. "im so happy cause today i've found my friends are in my head"
17. "hey there delilah whats it like in new york city? im a thousand miles away but girl tonight you look so pretty as you do"
18. "i walk down my street at night the city lights are cold and violent i am comforted by the approaching sounds of trucks and sirens"
19. "help, i have done it again. i have been here so many times before."
20. "bring two pre fixxed dinners up, ill unwrap the plastic cups. its just us my love its just us my love"
21. "a red handprint on the wad of your cheek pack your bags quiet while the lion sleeps"
22. "theres no combination of the words that i could put on the back of a postcard"
23. "so there was this woman, and she was on a aeroplane"
24. "speak to me tell me something so terrible a lulluby or something miserable that will keep me up at night"
25. "i know that it is freezing but i think we have to walk"

So, here's how it works:
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Napster, Media Player, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button

haha... i wonder how out of context these will be???...

Opening Credits: part of your world - little mermaid

Waking Up: Angels Falling - ICP (insane clown posse)

First Day At School: I dont want to miss a thing - Aerosmith

Falling In Love: Easy (like sunday morning) - Lionel Ritchy

take 2: A winters Tale - AFI

Fight Song: Devils Eyes - Buck 65

Breaking Up:Good Charlotte - the truth

Formal: These are the days - Jamie Cullum

Life's OK: Backstabber - dresden dolls <3 live version

Mental Breakdown: Rabbits Are Roadkill On Rt. 37 - AFI

Driving: Falling Down - Story of the Year

Flashback: The Gingers - Gingerbread man (HAHAHAHA)

Getting Back Together: Hide and Seek - Imogen Heap

Birth of Child: The Neden Game - Insane Clown Posse(HAHAHAHA)

Final Battle: Festival Song - Good Charlotte

Death Scene: Hallelujah(cover) - The Dresden Dolls

Funeral Song: Rainbow Connection(cover) - The Dresden Dolls

End Credits: The World is Black - Good Charlotte

Gag Reel: Loathing - Wicked(musical -groan-)

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the FUCKING COMPUTERMAN TOOK MY FUCKING PHOTOSHOP!

the differance between my friends and I:

They are afraid of self harming

and I sometimes couldnt give a fuck if i do or if i dont... I just want is to destroy

this term is going to be hell...

I'm finding it soo hard to sleep... fucking sucks... I need some tea...

I havent slept properly all week... even so now...

fuck I'm tired

so this weekend was alright...

gsh.. I feel so god damned old...

julia was/is holding a "girls night" tonight... I think... I cant make it...

OH EM GEE... jason webley is coming... sooo hyped... I hope I get in... my luck, there'd be almost 200 people or more waiting outside haha...

I stayed at the sheraton on the park for the weekend... it was pleasent... except it cost my grandparents 2000$ including food ect..

this morning I noticed the waitress fussing about her arms at first I thought nothing of it... ciggerette burns... scars... anyone can have that... then I noticed the May 1st braclets... I figured... I'm going to be researching this like next term... it was a major reminder that there are hundreds of people maybe even millions that do self harm... bah...

I dont know... Am I up for this?

BTW! who else adores my layout?
thanks em <3

sorry I haven't posted in a bit...

tonight I have my sisters concert... we cancelled the party on saterday and now its at the end of the holidays...

These were taken by my little sister, because at the time, I couldnt reach for the camera... moshpits... peh
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but there's WAY more

I also failed to mention that today he went out and bought me 30$ worth of credit...

I'm such an impossible girl

obviously in the end he'll want something from me... which I'm scared to think of what it will be